Do you believe what I'm saying now?
After returning from home from an open house at my school, getting my tire fixed (aka replaced), I was doing some dishes and had put in some old mix CD's I had compiled over the years, when a sudden wave of nostalgia hit me. I found myself recalling what it was like to be 19 again. I wasn't so much missing the dorm lifestyle, but I was realizing that I don't really talk to a lot of the people from that time in my life all that frequently now. It's not that I don't want to, or that I think any less of these folks, it's just that life has seperated us. I sincerely wish that I was better at keeping in touch with people, but that has never been my strength.
Why did I pick sophomore year? I think it's because I still feel fairly connected with folks from my last two.5 years of school. I've been back to Hastings House a couple of times, talk to those guys sort of regularly (more so that others), and I saw a lot of folks from the House days a lot this past summer.
I feel as if I was such a different person then. That year I went to a lot of shows...in Minneapolis, Madison, Milwaukee. Heck, and this will sound extremely lame, but I saw Weezer 3 times in a 12 month span. I one evening a week doing an (internet) radio show. I went to Madison and protested the war. For the first semester of that year, I was single.
What brought all of this on? I think it happened when listening to one song on a mix I made that was from my roomate Nick's CD. On it he sang about how he had lived 18 years and so much had happened...now he's 23, married, and has a kid. It hasn't been that long, but so much has happened. It's hella crazy. Tomorrow, Alison and I are going to figure out the tuxedo situation for the wedding, and to start a registry at some stores. Since we planned most of the wedding last spring, I've kind of forgotten about it. Now it's January 6th, and in 6 months and one day, I'm getting married. I anxiously anticipate that wonderful day, but holy crap it's sneaking up fast.
Right now, all I want to do is to go to the caf, have a contest with Colin to see how many pieces of pie we can eat, go sit in the lobby, drive back from a concert at 2am, and play in 8 ensembles at once.
How are you doing these days?
3 comments:
Oh Pat,
I feel the same way...well except for the whole wedding thing. I'm really bad at keeping in touch with anyone.
Kristine
It's okay, you're just coming to the realization that most of us are out in the RW now and things will never be what they were when we were 19...or 23 if you're me.
It's sort of painful at first, but it gets better. The wedding will help -- it will take your mind off of it a bit.
And of course, that is the idea behind these blogs that we are all attempting to keep. A way to keep in touch without actually keeping in touch. Well, that's the idea behind mine anyway. :)
Mine too. blogs are the modern way of passing someone in the hall and saying "Hey What's Up?" without ever planning on sticking around for the answer :)
I miss t-bone ensemble. :)
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